Due Date: June 5, 2020
Baby’s Gender: Its a BOY! I wasn’t totally shocked as this pregnancy felt very different from the first, but was sort of hoping for a sister for Marina. However, I’m sure I will learn and be exposed to a whole new world of things by having a baby boy!
Cravings/Aversions: FRUIT SNACKS!! Seriously, this is such a weird craving but I realized it today in the fabric store when I grabbed a bag of welch’s. I have been uncharacteristically buying gummy candy and Annie’s fruit snacks for Marina and Jeff… and eating them all myself! I finally realized it was just me with the weird craving! I’m also still struggling with my appetite at the end of the day, but I’m doing much better than I was a few weeks ago. I can’t resist sugar and I find myself reaching for it when I need a snack, but almost always end up feeling sick afterward. So I’ve been trying to have extra large healthy meals to really fill myself up so that I’m not tempted to reach for the sugar!
Size of Baby: According to my app the baby is 1.5 lbs already! I can’t believe it because it seems like the baby is growing so much faster this time… even though I’m literally looking at the same app hah. I guess the whole pregnancy is just moving faster and throwing me off!
Total Weight Gain: From my last measurement I’ve gained 5 pounds, bringing up the total to 12 lbs. The doctors are much happier than they were at my 20 week weigh in, because it now looks like I’m gaining the recommended 1-2 lbs a week. I definitely feel like I gained it faster, feeling slower and heavier all of a sudden which has made exercising difficult.
Exercise: To be honest the last few weeks have really thrown me and my exercise routine for a loop. I was sick, then traveling and have another trip coming up, so instead of my typical 4 workouts a week, I have been struggling to make 2 happen. I am prioritizing one yoga workout and one cardio, and I hope to keep up the stretching and yoga on my upcoming international trip. Pretty sure the lack of exercise has helped with the weight gain… but don’t tell my doctors that!
Favorite piece of clothing to wear right now: Although I have a bump for sure, my bump is still small enough where I can get by with streamlined silhouettes like the dress I am wearing in this post. I love the high boots and turtleneck pairing to elongate my silhouette, and I’ve been trying to extend my shape with more monochrome palettes as often as possible.
Symptoms: Sleep is still an issue which is why I think I got sick so easily, but that’s my main concern at the moment. I can tell other pains are brewing, but it’s been hard to identify what is pregnancy and what is just lack of working out/general stiffness. But I think I’m right in that sweet spot of pregnancy where everything is going great… until it doesn’t hah!
Baby Movement: SO. MANY. KICKS. All the dang time!
What I’m stressing about: Now that I know it’s a boy, I have a few gender disappointment things that I am dealing with. I never want to sound like a brat, and I know I’m lucky to have one healthy baby of each gender. But gender disappointment is still real, regardless of whether it’s not it’s irrational, which I agree it is. I have brothers and male cousins and have always been jealous of my friends with sisters and ‘built-in best friends’. When I ask Marina what we should name baby brother, she says ‘Sister” which makes my heart cry. There are lots of other things that come to my mind that make me sad, honestly sad enough that I don’t feel comfortable writing them down here. The past few weeks have allowed me to ‘get over’ many of my concerns, but there is still a lingering sadness that I’m sure will go away once the baby is born. Maybe when that time comes I will feel better about discussing my gender disappointment more openly, with a positive result on the other side!